I'm on a roll tonight.....alone, two margaritas (frozen, peach, yummy). Special friend's heart broken (courtesy of man-eating, heart-breaking, selfish, self-centered Queenie), married lover's on vacation with his family (yea for him - allow me a moment to contain the excitement.....) Best friend wants me to leave town.....dropped the price on my house A LOT.....teenage daughter is needing to go back to college - NOW!......Did I mention ALONE? With a few keystrokes, I deleted the private e-mail account. 95% of me is hoping he'll leave me alone.....5% of me is afraid he will.
I did have a wonderful breakthrough with my son who has been royally messed up since the separation and divorce. I called him out of the blue, surprised him - asked him if he wanted to come over. He did, we visited, he loves me again and doesn't consider me the town whore (apparently he was wasted/drunk when he left me that voicemail).
I have a clean slate to start over.........why can't that be enough?
I know there is a lesson (probably several) in all of this. Honestly, I'm sick and tired of learning. Just someone take my hand, pull me along, and push me in the right direction.
My brain is fried, my heart is broken, my spirit is wounded.
THERE IS NOTHING LEFT TO GIVE!!!!
On that note, I'm taking a tranquilizer, going to bed, and escaping this maddening, confusing, hurtful world.
Good night to all, and to all a good night
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Good Night queenie....
Tomorrow is a new day...
When queenies feet hit the floor in the morning,world watch out queenie up,awake and about!!!!!
Today is the tomorrow that you worried about yesterday....
Good luck darling, life sucks but without life we would have nothing...
Tonight it feels that nothing is all I have...
You have lots more than nothing... really you do. Just go to sleep and tomorrow will be a new day. Things look different in the light of day...
Not always better but different :) No really things will look better in the morning... with out the margaritas. :) Things will work out eventually one way or the other.
One way or another - it will all work out.
For real now, good night.
i love what you wrote and yes hopefully better days are comeing and i hope you have a nice day and hope we can be freinds. http://www.televisiontunes.com/Golden_Girls.html
Hey Queenie get over it!!!!! 10 years from now you'll look back and say "Those were the good old days." Roflmao. Shit happens baby, just take the shit thrown at you and spread it among the flowers. This is all a dream. We are all on a beautiful island and being waited on by naughty little elfs and elfetts. The band is playing music in the background and the drinks are free.
I changed my icon to that faraway place called Paradise where the drinks are all free, the people are all nice, and the flowers don't need shit to grow.
Get over it?? It's definitely time - past time.
Ten years from now, sadly, this will all matter.
REALLY a good advice Richard!!!! Go with it queenie!!!!!
Don't forget Queenie, tipping is still appreciated
and here's a get well 
Thanks.....best kiss I've had all day
OH Great now I'm blushing. Thanks, a lot
Queenie, I wish I could just reach out, give you a real big "you'll be ok" hug, be there when I feel my help or company would do some good, have all the right encouraging words at all the right times, give you a big, fat shoulder to cry on, make you laugh when you don't believe you'll ever laugh again (and I mean I'd really make you laugh), and make you see that you really do have a friend who cares so you must really be worth it. Then, maybe you would start to believe all that we have been telling you because why would we want to lie to you? We're your friends, so we're telling you the truth. Have as many good night's sleeps as you can and just keep facing those new days the best you can, although you feel they are endlessly difficult because it's the only way for that one miraculous day to come...the day when it is all different. That's the day that you want. If you want it bad enough, then face each day like it's going to be the right one. When you are truly ready for it, it'll be there. When it's obvious enough, it will hit you like nothing's ever hit you before! We're all waiting for that day with you...we want to rejoice with you!
Enjoy the drinks, and know that life goes on (I wrote a blog about that). Glad to see your relationship with your son is on its way to better understanding. Blood is thicker than water...